This was accompanied by a sense of throbbing, this I realised was my heartbeat. It went steady and as I went on holding my breath, which was surprisingly easy because I had come to terms with the possibility of dying, I noticed my heartbeat was affected by this. My heart beated slower. As I was first scared about that, I noticed my heart beating faster again, so I relaxed. I immediately noticed my heart going slower again. Slower and slower until just a heartbeat a second was noticed. Even slower and then, after a long silence I knew this was the last one, after this there would be no more.// No more heartbeat, no more life, no more me, parents greeving, good friends hurt, great things i could do left undone, unknown things unexplored. Could I start it again if I went on? Oh NO!, what if I cant!!! STOP THIS!
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